Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Confused

I am seriuosly at a junction.

One part of me would love to just pack up and go somewhere far away from this superficial life; go travel like the female nomad whom I know is hiding beneath this layers of crisply ironed shirt and pants. I have so many places to go to, it makes me sick to be reminded that without this job, I could never do so...

Another part of me would just like to quit, and cook and sell all my goodies...Seeing people smile after a bite of my creation tops any kinds of worries and sickness in the world...

Another part of me would just like to settle down! I'd love to feel resposible over myself and my loved ones...building up a family slowly, spoiling my hubby and my cute children...Going out with them..Mana my guy nih??

Another part of me always dreams of being an Ir. maybe partly for the sake of making the most of what I've achieved so far or maybe because it is what's expected of any engineers to achieve in the end, or maybe because I know that this choice is one of the most logical choice I have in life; considering I have a family to take care of...

And lastly, another part of me would love to study overseas, just like I wanted to 10 years ago...

You see how confused I am right now? And how much I want in life? At this age however, I wonder if its not too late to be thinking of these choices...

2 comments:

IbuHaziq said...

ikut hati mmg sume benda nak achieve...nk wat...sume tmpt nk pegi....but we cant have it all kan... :)

OLYN said...

tru dat...tp i iwsh i cud, smp to a point dat i dont feel like doing anything at all...