Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Kuala Lipis

growing up as children of an army officer; constant change of schools, change of houses, change of friends, discipline, spoiling and pampering of course, and very broad perspective and experience of life. all in all, i had 6 schools, one of which i attended with the infamous Siti Nurhaliza at kuala lipis. yup, this city girl used to live in a town which you could drive through in 2 minutes, attended a majestic clifford school, all fresh air and aplenty of oxygen. Mak had wanted to come back to reminisce the past for quite a while now. we decided last weekend was a perfect opportunity to do just that.

going to lipis, we stopped by raub for their famous fish head curry. that was yummy. we had 6 hotels to choose from; we picked centrepoint hotel, but when we arrived, the exterior was too scary looking (god knows how they ranked 1st on tripadvisor), we decided to try 2nd ranking on the list; plaza hotel lipis. the place was clean and ok for the price i guess. only rm120 for a family room. anyways, my family has a way of making a place interesting. we went around the city, lipis now even has a new township, which we went through as well. going through the camp we stayed for 1 year brought back so much good memories with Ayah. Our schools were also still so gorgeous, and we even found the shop we used to go to.

for dinner, of course we went to the rest house on the hilltop for their good that food. still good food there as well. for dessert, since we didn't have much to do, we ended up in karaoke which was fun ;) next day, we realised we've covered everything the day before, so it was just lazing around day for us. on the way back, we dropped by raub for traditional pahang food of tempoyak and sambal hitam. lunch was pretty expensive, but all was delicious, if not really spicy.

we arrived in kl by 3, which just shows how near lipis is, to kl. i dont think we're ever going back, but if we do want to, its so nearby, there wouldn't be any issues.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

France o France

my latest travel was to france, about 3 weeks back..we went to toulouse and marseille, and got a heavy wiff of snow at paris for flight into and out of france..

toulouse is an aerospace city; most of the people here works for airbus and there are many many other aerospace companies are here as well, to support this huge industry. i arrived about 1/2 a day before my CEO did, and i had a great time walking around, hopping in and off the metro (like any european cities, the system is fantastic) i managed to shop few handbags, no magnets were found here, since its not exactly a tourist centre. went to the pont neuf (landmark of toulouse - try google toulouse, and this would be the first thing you see on screen), capitole, canal du midi, st sernin cathedral and found by accident, the galleria lafayette (i like...)

foodwise; not at all a problem, being french, they love cheese so much, i can find cheese pizza, cheese tarts, cheese croissant in every cafes. i naturally love all the bakes in france, so i enjoyed quite a variety of the breads as well. carrefour nearby even has a halal section, so no issues with missing chicken and beef or getting over-whelmed with fish :) and what is france, of course, without chocolates.. i bought almost 20 chocolates and few cheeses to bring back home, and even the french approves of this being the best souvenir coming from france.

then he came, and work was non-stop. journey down south was great, however. we went to marseille for a meeting, but olyn being olyn, i made sure i enjoyed every bit of that as well. it was a 4hours drive down, and we saw beautiful landscape all the way; windmill, browned fileds, snowy patches, old houses and cathedrals, vineyards...all so gorgeous. first view of marseille at the customer's site; hmm...why did he say this was a gorgeous city again?? then when meeting was over, he decided we had plenty of time before night-fall at 5.30pm, so we headed towards sea.

marseille is absolutely breath-taking. its a port city, very old and it managed to retain most of its original beauty. we managed to hop onto the city tour tram, which you can take near the dock. the tour was the heart of the whole experience. we saw the mouth-dropping sunset from the sea side, we went uphill to the famous marseille cathedral or the Cath├ędrale Sainte-Marie-Majeure. up here, you can see the whole of marseille. reminded me of barcelona, without the sagrada familia in the distance. such a densed city with very well maintained old architecture.

after nightfall, his wife decided she wanted to put a footprint into spain. being a good hubby, and an obidient employee (yours truly) we convened, and headed further south into spain, into girona (the nearest city to france) that took another 4 hours. we had supper there of this weird looking but yummy tuna pizza and black squid paella (of course) then headed back home to toulouse, to arrive at 2am. france being france, all shops are closed, even the petrol stations. fuel was enough, but got us into trouble with returning the rented car, since we breached the contracts of returning the car with a full tank, therefore they charged us max..huhu..

all in all, this was yet another fun trip, with of course a not-so-fun side of it (80% of it, since its work work work) but i dont mind at all, coz i got to travel :)

im doing great

my last posting was about how hurt i was about him. just few days after, i found out so many things beyond my comprehension, that had helped me to heal almost instantly. imagine this;

3/12 : he says im his love
6/12 : he asks for a break; coz he had no choice but to get married coz his mother is dying, and he needed to get married to family's choice OR find another hindu girl to get hitched
12/12 : he changes his relationship status 'in a relationship'

sucks huh? again, i take this as a lesson learnt; once a playboy and a liar, always will be, so you should always avoid getting your heart into the situation with these types of people. another lesson learnt is that YM contacts are not trustworthy; you may say that its not applicable to everyone, but it is possible i think to actually put a 90 percentile accuracy to that assumption. yet another lesson learnt is to avoid getting in love with someone who hates his own family.

he's a teacher, very much loved by his students, but definitely not a good guy to get your heart into. good friend? maybe, but who knows right?

me? im doing great now. my heart is yet again tucked by a certain someone :) ill share more when im sure of this.

Wednesday, December 08, 2010

heartbreak chapter 3

dear diary,

my heart is hurt again. when people ask me if its not as bad as before, i thought it wasnt, but somehow it is. this time, urs truly got dumped, and reminded to get a grip. get a grip! can anyone ever imagine getting slapped twice in a day like that? i know it was the shortest relationship of mankind; 1 month of dating, 2 months of being a couple, 1 week of love declaration then suddenly the news. i knew i was asking for it when we started this friendship. i think twice of the same song is enough for me to learn to never ask for the same type of trouble in the future.

have i had enough of love? yes n no. i hate to give up, yet first thing that comes to mind when reminded of him, was to never get into one ever again.

this time, the cut is deeper somehow; probably the age factor, probably the ego factor, probably because this time it wasnt me doing d cut, probably because this time, i did too much; i cooked, i drove, i helped so much, i loved his friends, i respected what he does to d kids he loved and taught. i dont know.

i was reminded today of d silver lining. i would love to believe so, n i hope for it soon. i pray for myself, and hope for the prayers of others.


Saturday, July 31, 2010

from bad to worse

sheesh...everything's getting bad for me...i think i need to muhasabah diri...maybe i did something wrong, that's why everything is screwed for me now...

today's my boss's last day...i thought i'd be happy, but i'm upset...this is too nuts...doesn't make sense that i don't have anyone anymore to lean on or to act as my shield...

my most trustworthy engineer is resigning...i have another engineer to help, he's great, but he's new...my work is now gonna be my work, my boss's work and his work...im freaking screwed...

i don't know if i'm strong enough for this...need to get away and think straight...last thing i wana do is have a family reunion...and that's tomorrow...im supposed to wake up at 5.30am, its 3.12 am now, and i can't sleep...

maybe i shud take monday half day off...maybe ielts results would cheer me up, maybe not...at least its the most promising thing for now...

very unhappy...

Wednesday, July 28, 2010


i'm tired and hungry...but i chose instead to lock myself in the room...sometimes this mind and body and soul just cant take too much...work is hell, and will always be hell until i could figure out how to better manage i guess...so for the time being, i cope...

you know how wives can nag to hubbies and the hubbies, tired from work needs to listen and tolerate? i know how that feels guys...i felt like digging a hole and stuffing my head into it...especially when this happens when i was damn hungry and was stuffing my head with the first scoop of food...i couldn't dig one, so i left and locked myself in my room...no..i dont have a wife...i have a doting dependent family who gets upset over some dumb family reunion happening this weekend...

kenyir was relaxing...i need more of that...maybe i need to just get away...work and trying to understand my family needs may be too much for me now...

Thursday, May 20, 2010

better facility, better worklife?

yes and no...yes, if the facility is for the manufacturing line, which is the skin, the bone and the heart of the company...and when it is a 'must-have or else die' condition...for example...u sign a contract with a customer, to bake and sell bread, only to realize later that you don't have an oven...makes sense?

no...when you know for sure that this facility would only add up to your current headache...for example, a device which could haunt you day and nite...the company blackberry...honestly, i am looking forward to the features it may have...if u knew me better, im the type who'd only buy a phone for the functions of calling and messaging...the rest...is luxury (monetarily), which i'd rather put aside for my hobbies...

the thing is...the yes is usually a no, and the no is usually a yes...get why im stressed?

Saturday, May 15, 2010

bread craze

easiest bread on earth - take 3 cups of flour, 1.5 teaspoon dry yeast, 1 teaspoon salt, and whisk this together (as much as you can anyway) add in water slowly, while rubbing, till it gets into a gooey mess (this is about 1.5 cups later) cover the bowl with clean cloth, let it sit overnite...next day, scoop it up and smother it with more flour...put the lump into a cloth full of flour, and let it sit for another 2 hours...then bake and eat it with butter...this is french loaf, ladies...

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

great day

its been a while since i've actually said in sincerity that i had a great day...every time my customer asks me out of courtesy how i'm doing, i'd say out of courtesy that i'm doing great...no, in actuality, i'm not doing so great...but who wants to know anyway...

anyway, bitter aside, today i had a great day...this is sincere, seriously...we had a company-wide gathering today to talk about the company achievements for the 1st quarter...for all the work we've done, increment was announced (minimal, but syukur alhamdulillah), and i had few surprises myself...

hard work pays, i now believe...i was awarded future leader for the 1st quarter 2010! for that, i got myself a signature pen, a hamper, and a shaded (and branded 'future leader') parking lot...how cool is that? aside from that, there's also another surprise, which i don't intend to mention here, as reward for my hard work :) great day indeed...

latest misses

watching julie and julia this evening made me realize how much I miss writing and how long i've neglected cooking...well almost...most i did recently was baking french loaf, which by the way turned out perfect...have it with pure butter, right out of the oven...yummm....

i've been a busy bee...work has been both good and bad to me...good in sense that i travel on company's money, i go to 5-star dinners on company's money, i am well loved by the bosses and i have a kingdom (as my ceo had put it; he was referring to my office :) ) bad in sense that they love me so much, that they want me to do everything, regardless i'm merely human, i only have 2 hands and 2 young boys working for me (which in fact are great guys who learn so fast, but still, boys) and i think i'm losing hours and life for work...

love life...hmm...very dry season...

family life...well, mom's with nita at mekah right now, performing umrah...got a call from mom about an hour ago, with a worried note in her voice, asking if i was alright...she had a bad dream of me...hmm...not something u'd want to hear from someone in mekah...gave me the chills, and contributes to about 70% of why im still awake, crapping...other than that, all is well with them at holy land, alhamdulillah...

i'm still not done with the pom-poms...kinda worried, coz i just got news that i'm shooting off to china in 1.5 weeks...i have no idea what that is about, though, since somehow the bosses decided to keep it a secret until they announce it tomorrow at the assembly...am i gonna be exiled there? sent for another 'special' mission which would lead to a pile of work when i get back home? let's see what happens tomorrow...

i'm still awake...my online bf has gone to bed, so i don't have anyone else to talk to but you...but nothing else to talk about for now...sigh...is that all in my life right now? i should be worried...


ps: happy mother's day mummy dears...especially my mom, kak dudi and zai, my 3 fav moms in the world...

Friday, February 05, 2010

worst dates

still on the subject of the heart, i just realized that ive dated quite a bit...some were awesome, some were so bad, i cant even describe...well, i am describing it now though...here are my top 4 worst dates:

4. he was a friend, but he asked me out for a date...im fine with that...had dinner at a&w, which we paid separately (turn-off) and went to watch a blockbuster action movie, which he slept through halfway (coz its past bedtime!)

3. went out with a guy, first time, he talks about his ex...second date, he talks about his ex...third date, he talks about his ex...fourth date, he talks about a girl his family is matching him with...what the hell was i thinking??

2. a cousin introduced me to her close friend...we chatted a bit, and after few months (slow) he finally asked me out...he asked me to choose a place, so i chose bora ombak...maybe the place was overwhelming, maybe i was too chatty, maybe the music was too loud or maybe he is plainly stupid, but right after that date, he kept mum...n that raya, he asked for forgiveness...not!

1. it was a double date with my cousin, sweet of her n hubby to match me...this guy was about 5 years older, i was working in proton at d time, he was in perodua...so in terms of topic, shouldnt be problem rite?well...he picked me up with my cousins...didnt say a thing to me...we went to a food court, got seated and my cousins got up to order (and to leave us to chat) he went after them leaving me alone!

Thursday, February 04, 2010


its funny how at this age and after all ive been thru, i could still manage to make myself hurt in the heart one more time...i mean, come on...it was only 2 times that we've met (and 6 months of contact through phone and web), but this dainty heart of mine just had to stroll along and stumble...my crushes started in college, yeah...i have many many crushes...i may look like a dork in college, nose in the books and all, but hello, i have needs too ok...i dont even know now how to differentiate between crushes and love anymore, thanks to old age, and too many romantic movies (damn i love those) i guess...i thot i was in love with this latest one, well, maybe still am, especially after he has confessed 3 times that he is...but u dont just disappear after saying those kinda things do u? im confused...hmmm...maybe im a lousy kisser? naa...cant be...with these amazing lips?? (who else would say this if not me) anyway...ive chucked him out (well, not entirely, to be honest, we're still connected in other ways) and am waiting for my next interest...bored now, not knowing when and who and how...sometimes i wish i could just purchase one from jusco and be done with it...life just has to be harder though so u could have better stories to tell ur children...imagine saying to them...i bought ur daddy in jusco keramat...so not romantic...now i feel like i need to go shopping...

Sunday, January 31, 2010

kemaman short hol

went to ganu recently to see a friend getting hitched and to accompany nik to her friend's wedding too, both in the east...headed to kemaman on friday morning, arrived for lunch, only to find all the restaurants closed for friday prayers...we didnt get our tong juan stuffed crab, but went instead to mesra mall, and that was where we got the idea for our nites in kertih; karaoke...huhu...first nite; 3 hours, 2nd nite; 2 hours (had to leave coz of zuree's birthday celeb at noname cafe; min's bro's cafe that makes the best drinks in the world; you create it, he'll make it) i had teh o peach suam...yumm...

anyway, aside from karaoke-ing, n lepakking with the guys, of course we went to andy's wedding; he is like he is, and even met up that nite with the rest of the gang for the celeb..its been years since ive seen guys getting hit by eggs n bucketful of water like what zuree got; pure fun :p but we were on our side; the peace corner (with nik, huda, faizal and andy with KFC in hands, across the parit), no eggs in the face please (although i did get a little on the head) other than that crazy nite, we had satar, sotong goreng and kepok at aziz satar (of course), sunset dream at awana (of course) breakfast at haiping (of course of course)...i love kemaman all over again...

Monday, January 25, 2010

singapore quickie

had a weekend getaway to singapore to meet a friend... had fun at the night safari, a restful weekend at the parkroyal (quiet hotel, hidden amongst the trees at beach road) and good food at usman and zam zam restaurant (both at arab street) no shopping this time, hopefully in the next one...nandre non the above...;)