Sunday, May 27, 2012

God knows how strong I am:

Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya...

Holy Quran 2:286

Saturday, May 26, 2012

so serious...

having been brought up with respect for elders, im quite appalled at how people here lack of it...not the locals, unfortunately, but the malaysians here...

alhamdulillah, i am surrounded by well-educated people here, in the matters of islam...most of them are 10 years younger, but having the knowledge beyond my years...but im disappointed, however, that this comes with the flaw of no or little respect of my 'lowly being'...i believe, though it may be that i do ask for your opinion or advice in certain matters of life, there is still a limit as to how you should address me, as an elder, nevertheless...as usual, i dont ask for much...

when you see me, say salam...i thot that's part of being a good muslim? why do you expect me to say it everytime? and why do you have to act like you didnt see me? im not exactly small...i think even the blind could see me...

when i say something, be it stupid, just be nice about it...maybe you don't get my simple jokes, but you dont have to take everything so seriously...

thats another thing i notice...i dont believe islam asks its believers to be so serious...life is short on earth, and i believe we should always remember to balance and do everything in moderation...when someone is teasing in a good way (not la saying...hoi fatty...if i ever got that, next thing youll see is my fist in your face!), at least smile politely or laugh...

i had a mug when i was younger...it reminds me to...

live a little,
laugh a little,
cry a little,
and smile always..

at age 20+, if you cant even take a simple lame joke...i wonder how itll be like when you reach another decade...life is complicated kids...kick back, take a breather and get a life...

Monday, May 21, 2012

kecewa

a friend is a journalist...not u saza...another friend...he said he was seeing yuna today for an interview...i excitedly, hoppingly asked for an autograph...a simple 3 liner; to olyn, yuna...and i didn't get it...and now i cant stop crying...

well...its not like yuna means that much to me anyway...its a whole reflection of how my life has been with men and gifts...ive had 5 men in my life...and the only gifts i had was from my ex fiance who gave me a teddy bear very well worth mentioning by the way coz its huge, and a love song compilation cd (which he bought from a nearby store, coz he forgot my birthday, on our second year together) others just fed me food...

i dont ask for much...i dont compare with the friends i have who receives birthday gifts, everyday for a week before the birthday itself...i dont get jealous of friends getting the most expensive gadgets for no apparent reason...but that may be the problem...i dont EXPECT...ive been to INDEPENDENT and have been the one flourishing my men with favours (my cooking especially) and have been buying whatever i want by myself...

though today shouldve been expected, it never occured to me that i should have seen it coming...i should NOT have been excited, i should NOT have been hopping and telling everyone that im getting yuna's autograph, which i thought was simple enough to accomplish...but i guess it was too much to ask...and therefore from this day forth...i will NOT EXPECT anything from anyone but myself, my family and my closest girlfriends...

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Jangan engkau bersedih...
Sesungguhnya Allah bersama kita...

Holy Quran 9:40

Friday, May 11, 2012

My Own Home!

I was supposed to study today, which I did, but keep on stalling because of a conversation I had with Mom just now...I'm sooo looking forward to go back home now...So many things to look forward to, especially my new house, just waiting for me to clean and make beautiful...It's my first home, and though I would love to equip it with the best things, I think this will be a non-pretentious home which I'd decorate to my affordability, and modesty but above all, good taste :)

I'm still making up my mind about the colours of the rooms, which I will paint with own bare hands, since they're not so large anyway...My room; I think my friends could well guess what colour...maybe ash pink or light blue...the library either turquoise or earth green..and the second bedroom either blue or yellow...Mom said the overall colour of the house is a nice beige, so I guess all these colours would suit it...

First things to do:
1. Basic electrical needs - plugs, lights and fans
2. Paint
3. Clean !!
4. Basic Kitchen Cabinet
5. Sofa
6. Main Room Deco
7. Second Room Deco
8. Electrical Appliances

My weekend project between my new busy working life...Once I reach number 5, I plan to make doa selamat for the family and besties...Excited!!!

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Phases of Life

People always say that there are many phases in life...study phase...work phase...marriage phase...family phase...well...I've been juggling between the first two for now, and the best part is, the second phase has now moved on to a greener pasture (I think so :p) starting in few months time...keeping my fingers crossed...though its a sealed deal anyway...All signed and sealed...Now just waiting for the older hirer to respond to my 'sudden' resignation...Now to plan for better wardrobe...huhu

Tuesday, May 08, 2012

Speaking of masks...I guess I'm wearing one now...I look chirpy and full of life...but deep in me, I feel lonely, sad and tired...I cry for no reason...I can't really concentrate on my work lately...I don't know how else I could amend this feeling, but to pray to God for a turn of events soon...