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dear diary,
ive not been feeling myself since last night...lately, this feeling comes quite often...at times like this, i sometimes feel like getting into my car and driving off to somewhere far far away, without a care of whether i had a penny in my wallet or if i brought along my phone...2 weeks ago, when no one was home, and i was on my way home from working on a weekend, i almost drove on to ipoh...but damn my conscious mind stopped me from doing so...i exited rawang and went back home...is it the hormones? will something really big and ugly happen to me if i finally relented and followed my heart? i dont know what i want actually...my heart is a lost case, thats for sure...my mind is going nuts sometimes, even at work nowadays i feel like throwing a tantrum...why shouldnt i feel that way? butt ugly uniform, work like a dog, lousy food, getting calls from customers on my holidays on my own phone (no...d company only provides phones for d bosses, but i need to take those bloody calls anyway)...forget about getting into d car...now i feel like hitching d next plane to nowhere...fuck this life...