Thursday, December 15, 2011

single and available...whats the point in that

common questions to oneself at this age...why am i single...when am i going to have children...

though at this era, where everyone thinks that being single at 32 is kinda normal (see what i mean...the 'normal' word needs to come with 'kinda') i am somehow living in the past, where i believe that at this age, i should be home with my 3 kids, baking some pies for tea to welcome my hard working husband home from work...that's what i had in mind, well...maybe about 10 years ago...(well, to be honest, that's still something i look forward to) the weird thing was, when it came to men, when i was 22, i never really thought about them...i was happy in my own happy world, surrounded by the lovable bardaques in uni...doing foolish things, not caring at all to look around for a guy, not that i need to look around anyway, since i was taking a course with 10 girls to 90 guys odds...i was practically swarmed by them everyday for 5 years!

then came my working days...again...similar statistics, but this time, it improved a bit, coz this was when all the dates and bf's came along...none stayed long enough though, to answer the questions...

come to think of it...what have i been doing these 10 years?

well...i was talking to my housemates (who are a century younger than me, by the way) about what we could and have achieved in our lives...one of them is very serious about it...wanting to change the world sort of person, the other one was being cute about it...but kids nowadays, especially the ones here (im not being judgmental about kids studying back home, but these kids here are truly different...something you need to see for yourself to agree) are of a different level of maturity...they are not afraid to tell you their opinion in life, they love to argue about politics (believe it or not!) and they are survivors...

well...back to the topic...while talking to them about what ive achieved, i then truly believe that god is fair in his weird old ways...i may not be married and having kids and all...but i have achieved so highly in my career, i have travelled so much around the world that i could relate to almost everyone about everywhere, i have met so many people, i have lived in so many places (partly thanks to my dad, who uprooted us every few years...thanks Ayah), i have a wonderful family and awesome circleS of friends (notice the 'S'...i have my UTP gang, school gang, bagpackers gang, UL gang, liverpool gang, SMEA gang)...these are some of the hundreds more things i need to be thankful for in this life...

sometimes people forget their blessings...i hope i never will...but i still want what everyone has, and im sure god will give it to me one day...like mom used to say...my guy is walking towards me now...its only time that ill meet him :)

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